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It’s Monday, Week 6, and I Feel Great!

I think I thought that by now in 2014 there’d be huge, drastic changes to how things were/looked on the last day of December in 2013. I was expecting to do a 360 right away, to be a completely new person, shedding flakes of skin and personality flaws and fat and procrastination all at the same time, on the same day, the same second… well THAT SHO’ AIN’T HAPPENIN’! So what is?

I set this whole site up for myself to be pretty crazy. You can probably tell from my endless lists and planning that I tend to border on OCD – which is hilarious when paired with procrastination such as my life. So there are no drastic changes that have happened in the first 6 weeks of 2014. I’ve lost a few pounds, I’ve joined a gym, I’ve started standing up for myself at work, I’ve looked for new jobs (but haven’t submitted any full applications yet so that’s pointless to say), I’ve nurtured my relationship with my family, I’m starting to let go of weighty “friendships”, and I’ve gone to a few cool events.

Those first two weeks of January seemed supercharged with “cool things to do”. I was actively going out and doing things with friends, and then once I started focusing on this weight loss (and thus being afraid to eat out or go to a bar), I stopped all that… I’ve got to find a balance.

Time to look at my February goals and see where I am since 1/3 of the month is over. My February goals are:

Overall GOALS:

  1. Listen to every BEATLES album chronologically. (1 down)
  2. Read 3 books related to my goals. (Read one, 2nd started)
  3. Lose 8 pounds! (1 lb loss – had setback due to family visiting)
  4. Keep my house as CLEAN as it was at the end of January. (Doing ok – could be better)
  5. Find 25 Things to Donate. (Haven’t started – will start today)
  6. Go to the gym 8 times. (Gone 3x)
  7. Spend the last two weeks of Feb in Mardi Gras BLISS (Not there yet)
  8. Find/Make a Mardi Gras COSTUME (Still no clue on this one)
  9. Apply to 3 jobs (Found 2 – haven’t applied yet) 

10 AWESOME THINGS THAT HAPPENED IN FEBRUARY:

(….. crickets) All I’ve done is work/come home/shop/eat/sleep…

As for OK things that actually have happened?

  • Bought shoe inserts to help with foot pain
  • Bought socks to help me out at the gym (needed cushioning)
  • Ordered a sports bra (came today – love it!)
  • Ordered over-the-ear sport clip headphones for the gym (WooHoo!)
  • Took the skin off the damn rotisserie chicken (harder than it sounds) before eating
  • Had dinner at M’s – talked about the Doctor all night

As you can see, I did accomplish a few small things but my list is still right there, shining brightly in my face, unfinished…

TODAY’S GOALS that involve verbs (will update later if I get them done):

  1. TAKE bath – SHAVE
  2. COOK Healthy Dinner for partner
  3. GO to the Gym
  4. CLEAN  kitchen/bedroom
  5. WATCH Biggest Loser (I’m on Season 7, down to final 4)
  6. MAKE list of 3 jobs to apply for TOMORROW (include on list what actually needs to be done)
  7. SPEND only 10 minute segments on my game(s)  – USE A TIMER
  8. BUY a procrastination book
  9. READ the first chapter in the book I buy
  10. DECIDE on a mardi gras costume
  11. FIND 5 items to donate
  12. LISTEN to the FIRST song on the FIRST Beatles album

Think I can get all that done? … Gosh I hope so.. will check in later and let ya know

(^^The crossed off items are what actually got done…so everything else gets rolled over to today’s list)

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Can’t Sleep, Ate an Egg, Stared at Ceiling

…and just like that, we’re almost through with the first week of February. Holy crap time is flying! My conundrum of the evening is this: late night snacking. I. fucking. love. chocolate. There, I said it. When people talk about obese folks having addiction to sweet foods, they’re talking about me – my face could be on the advertisement as a reason to ban sugar from the planet… ButOhGodIfTheyDidIWouldDie! I really have trouble with late night binges. I live within a walking distance from an awesome fast food place (Rally’s) and tonight I was super-craving some loaded fries…(insert drool here)….

But time lords, fear not, for I did not succumb to my own temptation. Instead I googled the nutrition info of all the crap I *wanted* to eat and after realizing half a bite of all of that is what I should be eating for an entire day, I decided to make a hard boiled egg. All’s well and dandy except that now it’s 2:30 am and I’m WIDE awake with no sleep in sight.

I have off of work tomorrow, so the bulk of my to-do list will get done then – fingers crossed. For now I think I’ll just shut the lights off and stare at the ceiling until a dream snaps me up.

Cheers and hope y’all get to sleep more than I will tonight… 

(sheesh I don’t even drink anything with caffeine…) 

Welcome, February! One month down, eleven to go!

Well that month FLEW by, right? I disappeared for a few days because I had people in town. I just updated my “January” summary page which keeps me accountable for all the lists and crap I post on this thing, so check it out to see how I did in January.. then stop in to the soon-to-come February page to see what’s in store for this short month of mine.

Today is my first “day off” in February 2014, and I’ve got a lot of energy to expend. I think I’ll clean a bit today, go to the gym,  and make a great meal. I found two great jobs to apply for, so later on I’ll sit down and start working on routing those applications where they need to be.

A couple of things:

1. I’m done with Weight Watchers. I really dislike it. I did it for a month. I lost 8+ pounds, which is great… but their message boards suck and their nutritional tools suck… (why? because they have NONE). I’m swapping to SparkPeople instead. I’ve used it before, and I’m confident it will take me towards my goals once more.

2. I’ve realized that I can’t just focus on one specific category every week. Life just doesn’t work that way, so I’m changing it up. My new goal will be to check *something* off a list in each category once per week.

Day 2, Week 2

Man oh man — I’m really feeling like a snail being pulled off its rock so far this week. Anxiety attacks, high BP, waking up with a racing heart, dreaming about bad career experiences.. all that in the last two days because this week’s focus is the CAREER category. Well, sheeeeeeit. I’ve gotta get over this if anything’s gonna get done.

Here’s today’s to-do list so I can stay accountable: 

  • Clean off the top of my damn dresser
  • Spend 10 minutes (with a timer) picking up my bedroom
  • Spend 5 min cleaning front room
  • Spend 5 min cleaning Office
  • Spend 5 min cleaning bathroom
  • Sign into LINKEDIN – look around
  • Start an excel sheet of jobs to apply for with deadlines
  • Start reading “12 Steps to Freedom: A Career Planning and Self Help Manual for Prospering in Today’s Job Market”
  • Make dinner
  • Track all my food on WW
  • PLAN the rest of the week (Shopping/events/work/meals, BLOG POSTS)
  • Take a nice bath and be girly: Exfoliate, Shave, all that Jazz… (LOL)
  • Find 3 new inspirational career help sites